Far far away Farther than your imagination can take you Will we ever be able to return To the old days when we bouth laughed innocently?
Collecting pieces of memories that have Like a shattered glass puzzles We always realize what are important to us After we lose them
The world without you Is like a jigsaw puzzle No matter how much time passes It's never complete Nobody can ever replace you
Far far away Stopping time Engrave your shadow into my heart If and only if it's possible I would sacrafice everything Just to see your smile once more
We are all connected By the chain called reality We aren't even allowed to dream Even than I'm still looking For a light through the darkness
Far far away Farther than your imagination can take you Will we ever be able to return To the old days when we bouth laughed innocently?
Far far away Stopping time Engrave your shadow into my heart If and only if it's possible I would sacrafice everything Just to see your smile once more
Yea yea~ Just once more~
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We wonder around, looking for a destination Even if you're crying with sadness, change it to hope someday
The past I tried to forget starts to tremble my heart My feelings that gets ignored as I desire more As we live, we lose something Even then we refuse to give up in our dream we see in future
Even the reason for sadness, I want to hold on to it tight What is in the end of the seasons as it passes away We wonder around, looking for a destination Even if you're crying with sadness, change it to hope someday Cause I'll never gonna stop believing in my dream
The reason I turned my back to somebody's kindness Is because I want to turn my sadness into my strength If there are as many friendly encounters as depressing seperation Let's trust in the day we'll meet again
The truth behind everything I want to understand it one by one The awkward good bye I said that day Hopefully we'll understand each other in future
We change, our body and even our heart But no matter how much time passes, there are feelings that'll never change Cause I'm never gonna stop running toward my dream
Even if you get lost, even if you get side track If you realize in the ray of hope that exist in the end You'll be able to keep on moving
We wonder around, looking for a destination Even if you're crying with sadness, change it to hope someday Cause I'm never gonna stop believing in my dream
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I dyed my hair... Dark dark red... You probably won't notice it though... Cause I sure can't... Unless I'm under a blight sun or something...
Must get a new dye... A lighter one... The one I got was too dark. I wanted to be dark dark red... But this is too dark.
On another note... 3 midterm this week and I haven't even started studying... Cause I'm sick of studying from last week's calc midterm... I'm gonna be fuuuucked...
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Swimming class is fun as usual, as long as I can wake up for it...
Organic I don't go... And the test some how always screw me over even if I studied early for it...
History, I did so bad(as usual) that I withdraw it... I mean it's impossible for me to pass that class considering midterm was a debate and final is an oral paper based on an AMERICAN women born BEFORE 1960(I don't really kow anybody like that... especially since I'm in bing)
English is fun... Enjoying the class on days when I'm not too tired to fall a sleep
Anthro, skipping all the lectures but going to the discussion... But usually fall a sleep in it...
And that is all for... class wise...
Now this weekend... Started off by going to the Haunted House in the Old Union on Friday night. It was fun. It was so cheesy and u can see everything that's going on that u can't get scared... Instead u just laught at them. I mean all the flashing lights gave away where the person was hiding... Than the "dead body" on the group that starts crawling when u get near them was stupid too...
Than we went to the party at this club Eclipse. I swear, the stupid cab dropped us off at middle of no where... Well it was by the Rat but that's no where Eclipse. We ask the cab driver where it was and gave us wrong direction... We ask these two guys walking on street and gave us wrong direction... So than we asked these other 2 guys standing outside the office building smoking who finaly gave us the right one...
All the walking was a bitch considering it was drizzling too... When we got to the party, it was a bitch waiting on the line... But good thing Sue called Tae to get us in and cut all the line. The place sucked. Well it was decent... Considering it was located in Binghamton. I didn't expect much to begin with. Hell, the bar was probably bigger than the dancing floor.
I went with Akira, Mike, Haemi, and Sue... And I saw Amy, Sarah, Adam, Tae, and Hoy there... But all I did was looking for person to get me drinks, and dance with Sue. She's wearing a MAID's costume... So ofcourse I'll stick with her. And yes, I can finaly semi-dance now. Well atleast it looks like something?
Didn't really talk to all the other peps unless there was something going on. We tried to hook up Haemi with guys... Which seemed to almost work since she did have converstation and dance with them a bit... We did the same with Akira but that didn't go well at all.
We finaly got drinks at like... 2:30AM but the club closed at 3AM... So there really wasn't any point. Why on earth does it close so early??? We got home around 4AM... I had to meet for the Six Flags Frieght Fest at 8:15AM so I just stayed awake instead of falling a sleep... Well I think I doze off for like 30min but I tried to stay awake the whole time.
The bus ride to Six Flags was ok? Everybody showed up late so we left around like 9:30AM... But it was a coach bus and they showed movies. On the way there they showed Taking Lives and Day After Tomorrow.
Got to Six Flags at 1:15PM... And we had till 9:45PM to do whatever. That sounded so long considering I'm so damn tired... Half the rides was closed cause it's fall/winter... And this isn't the Great Adventure. It's the one near Buffalo which was like 1/4 the size of Great Adventure. There wasn't much ride to go on... I went on the Viper, the uhh... something something... and bumper car thingy(we waiting like half hr for it, thinking it was like the Haunted House, only to find out it was bumper car... What a waste)... Oh we also rode this realy slow car u had to drive. I made Sue drive it and uhh... She was horrible... She ended up stalling the traffic, and the funny thing is... THe car behind us were driven by like 8-10yr olds!!!
We spent most of the time just walking, looking for stuff to do. We went through this something Gallow where people dress up as zombies and do all sorts of crap to scare you. It was outdoors and we went through it in afternoon so it wasn't fun... We went again at night but we knew what was gonna happen so that sucked too...
We also went on the ferris wheel that opened up at night time(we were the 1st ones to be on it!). Ofcourse after we get on, it had to start raining for a bit... Even after it stopped raining after few min, the wind was strong as hell. They stopped the ride for like 20min cause of the wind, so we pretty much froze our ass off.
Oh we also spent good amount of time in arcade. Especially the "shoot the target with gun and u get ticket" one. You know, the one where if u bring a camera, than take a pictur eof it... than all the stuff goes crazy? We got 263 tickets from that. Sue and I tried to see who can get most ticket... and she beat me by 2 tickets!!! WTF!!!
We also played "throw ring and see if u can hook it on to the bottle", "Hit the ball off a slanted wall and see if u can get it into a bucket", "Use a magnetic pole and catch a fish" and... some other crap... But those didn't go so well.
In the end, we ended up with 3 stuffed animal(dog, crocodille, and a fish), 2 fake flowers, and 1 ring(Yea... all for Sue pretty much).
Well time fly by(not really) and we go back on the bus... We finish watching Day After Tomorrow... And saw Man on Fire. I had no clue what the fuck was going on cause the sound was too low and I could hardly see from wearing the contacts... By the time I got back home(around 2), my eyes more completly blood shot.
Club sucked... Rides sucked... But it was still fun
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I didn't like it(Though I figure that much before I even saw it)
Problem 1: Characters
Alice - Ok... She's too damn strong in the movie. She's probably stronger than Wesker in Code Veronica. Than ofcourse she's like 100 times stronger in the end... And she makes no sense at all...
Jill - Ok... She was really cool in beginning when she just walks into police station and shoot anybody that's infected with T-Virus(Not just zombies... but living people too). Than after everything broke loose, she starts smoking and do lots of stuff the video character would never do... Not to mention she's weak. I mean after surviving the Spencer Mansion and dealing with Tyrant and Hunters, she shouldn't have trouble with stupid zombie dogs.
Carlos - Umm... He's too damn old. Looks nothing like video game Carlos. And why on earth is HE the squad leader??? He was just a private in the damn game... And he's too... non-annoying and smart. Complete opposite of the game.
Nicholi - He used to be the "god damn annoying as hell back stabber" in the game RE3:Nemisis... But now he's just some Lt. under Carlos' command(it was the opposite in the game). In his case, he's too damn young. And die too easily... Got killed by stupid dogs and had no clue about what's going on while in the game he was really skilled and knew EVERYTHING about the projects in Racoon City.
S.T.A.R.S. - Where on earth did those S.T.A.R.S. came from??? The only ones left should be Jill, Chris, Barry, and Bradd(who wasn't even in the movie). But in the movie there's like 20 other ones. WTF???
Nemisis - He's too damn weak. He dies from being crashed by a stupid helicoptor. While in the movie he can withstand getting hit from rocket launchers, dumped into pool of acid, and thrown off from 6 floor clock tower. The only way to kill him was to shoot him into bits with a big ass rail gun and completly pulvalize(can't spell) him. He also didn't have his signature "tenticles". And he didn't get stronger each time he fights... He didn't even turn into the big ass monster in the end. Not only that, he was also like semi robot... Using some weird ass gatling gun. And he got his old memory back in the end.
Ashfords - Now I'm confused about them... I guess they are just relatives from the ones in Code:Veronica since the names are different?
Problem 2: Story
The story is based off RE3:Nemisis... Which went horribly wrong. The Umbrella has like too much control over the town. The characters were all different with same name. Nemisis didn't even fight Jill. They should've just made the story completly original like the 1st movie. It made the cool concept in RE3:Nemisis look stupid. Than what's with the stupid ending? With that stupid duel between Nemisis and Alice??? Jill played almost absolutly no part in the movie... Like she's just there for added scenes.
Problem 3: Fight Scene
WTF is going on??? It's worse than Bourne Supremecy. Atleast in the movie, there wasn't any blur... Not it had a blur AND bad shaking camera. Alice could be getting gang banged by army of Zombies and I still wouldn't know what's going on.
Overall:
Bad movie... Just cause it's in RE world. Worse than the 1st movie. The 1st movie was bad, but it was still a decent zombie movie. Now this is... Just bad? I might've been cool if it's completly RE unrelated.
Umm... I think that's it for now???
Oh yea...
Congrats to Ruzhi for missing his 1st class in college today.
Happy b-day to Gloria
Happy late b-day to Zeng(that IS his spelling right???)
Oh and Sue is sooo mean~
I should stop watching movie while trying to study for tests... Cause it's really not working right now...
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Well I got a gf... Incase people didn't know that yet?
And so far... I don't like it much. My first gf ever and I can see exactly why I didn't get one before(amongst many reason).
First of all... Lack of private time. It's either being with friends, with girlfriend(her name's Sue), or with room mate. It's a completly opposite from how I used to live for my last 20years of my life... Which was basically just me doing whatever the hell I want by myself, occasionally being with friends. It probably sounds like I'm anti-social(which I won't deny) and a loner(which I also won't deny) but I REALLY liked having good quality time just... relaxing and whatever away from everybody.
Another thing is... constantly thinking about her when i'm away. Yea, that sounds really korny right? But I really do. I like her quite a bit... And I have hard time concentrating on my work when I'm not with her... And when I'm with her I'm not doing work... So basically these past few days I got no work done at all. I mean I can't study for shit to begin with... Another thing bothering me is like... Not good. My friend used to tell me I'd get really attached to person if I get a gf... And they're right. And it's really annoying.
Last thing(atleast for now) would be friends. All the stupid teasings are... annoying. But I'm fine with that. It's just for fun and I would've done same thing. But it gets really annoying when they tell me stuff that can bring up misunderstanding.
Take today's for example... Sue went out with her friends for a birthday party. That part I knew. Than in the middle of the night my friend Zhang calls me up saying:
"Where the hell are u man? Why aren't u at the party with Sue??? Call her up damn it!!!"
I'm like "What party??? Sue's there???"
And he goes... "Yea! Call her up man!!!" and... hangs up???
Now a little part of my brain is calm enough to go... "Well she's just out with her friends for b-day. Just think of it as 'girls night out'. There's absolutly nothing wrong with that"
Than the rest of the brain goes... "What the hell is she doing there without telling me??? And why did Zhang keep on telling me to call her??? Is there something bad going on there, that I should know about???"
Completly paranoid, I know. And I'm sure Zhang didn't mean any harm... But it's still annoying how he said it. Makes me wonder if she's trying to find a new bf or something. Than the idea of it completly just ruined my night... So much for R&R on saturday night.
Oh and in the end... My little part of the brain was right. She wasn't doing anything. Just out with her friends for b-day party.
Yeaaaaa... This whole bf/gf bussiness is gonna take whole a lot of getting used to... So far I'm not liking it.
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Song from Full Metal Alchemist... I love the group name lol
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Rewrite - Asian Kungfu Generation
Wanting to spit out my confused feeling Because there's no other proof of my existence This future of mine that I finaly got hold of Is contradicted by "dignity" and "freedom"
Wanting to erase that distorted image Because I see my limitation through it In the window of the my excessively self-conscious There are no dates in last year's calendar
* Erase, than rewrite The pointless ultra-fantasy Resurrect, than rewrite The unforgettable sense of being The meaningless imagination The driving force that creates you Devote your whole body and soul
Cutting down the feelings that started to grow I cry After realizing that I'm just a mediocrity I cry A rotten heart A sneaky dirty lie
Really good song~ And I haven't translated for a while... My favorite Porno song and also a god damn hard one to translate... There's like 1/4 less words in japanese than in english.
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Swallow-Tailed Butterfly - Porno Graffitti
Flying around as if dancing in air A swallowed-tail butterfly appeared In the middle of summer night Under the full moon The yellow respresenting happiness Wrapped by the blue sorrow And the deep black wings similiar to the endless horizon
I asked the wanderer "Where are you heading? When will it end?" The wanderer answered "There is no end, though ending it is always possible"
"I see... Well take care" The day we parted with these words were a while ago He hasn't returned yet After all these years, I realized that I was the wanderer searching for answers
*Meeting you was enough for me The world was filled with light Even though just meeting you in a dream used to be enough I wished to be loved back by you The visage of the world changed The sky and the water merge in horizon
The words the bard breathed into a single leaf It's true meanings are still a mystery
If this was a tragedy, isn't it such a horrible story I can't go on or even turn back Just standing on the stage all alone
If you wish I will sacrafice myself for you I will shield you from the falling ashes of flame As long as you will pick up remains of my feelings With your hand and keep it next to your heart
* Repeat
The lone swallow-tailed butterfly in the dessert In the other size of the the wavering field Is an oasis beyond reach Please give me water Please love me if you can Just rest your wings on my shoulder
Well school started today... Man this really sucks... I really didn't enjoy my summer too well. I didn't get to go anywhere and it's very... disappointing.
My plans that failed:
Road Trip to CA: Well that plan had pretty good chance of failing considering the people that was planned to go. If those people failed to go to Six Flags after 4-5 times, there's no way they'll be able to go on 2-3 weeks trip.
Trip to Paris: Just a quick idea I came up with... And I would've gone there if I thought of it few weeks earlier. By the time I thought of it, the tickets turned to summer prices... Fudger...
Trip to Florida: Ehhhh... My parents didn't trust my driving skill. Atleast not enough to drive down there by myelf.
Trip to Canada(1): My parents screwed up with planning the trip. They made me take 1 week vacation from work, only to decide they'll go the week AFTER the dates I got vacation for... So I didn't go. I didn't really mind since I wasn't looking forward to seeing dozens of relatives I've never met before.
Trip to Lake George(1): Called Mike... Mother picked up and I left message... I threw away his number thinking I have it saved in my cell... Yea... He never called back and I couldn't call again.
Trip to Lake George(2): Well 1st one failed, so I figure I'll just go up there by myself for few days right after the Binghamton orientation. Buuuut I couldn't find any cheap place to stay online and I didn't feel like driving around looking for motels there.
Trip to Canada(2): This was partially successful? I went to Canada after orientation instead of Lake George. Drove there by myself and stayed with my relatives. I did see Niagra Falls... And I did get to go to Toronto... And umm... Yea... that's all I did? I only spent 2 days in Canada cause of work. 1 day with my "aunts"(who are younger than me) and 1 day in Toronto.
Trip to Boston for Festival: This was a sure plan. It really should've been... It was supposed to be just me going to Boston for the festival, stay at my uncles place... and than look around Boston. Very simple plan that got completly screwed cause of my mom. My aunt in DC hasn't been feeling too well and my mom wanted to take her somewhere... So ofcourse that had to be incorperated to my plan. Well series of events happens... The whole family decide to go eat a cambodian buffet for breakfast, THAN go to the festival. So we eat, than we go... And as we're trying to park thunderstorm shows up and it got cancelled.
Ofcourse, I wouldn't be so mad about the events if that was it... But noo... THe night before I said we should go early morning and have breakfast at the festival cause the weatherman said it's gonna rain in the afternoon. Who the hell go to festival in afternoon if they say there's a storm coming than??? A simple logic would be... "Well weatherman says it's gonna rain. Those people are usually wrong but it DOES look like it'll rain. Perhaps we should go to festival first since that won't stay open during the storm while the buffet will". Which is exactly what I said the night before... And my mom agreed to it... but for some weird ass reason we still went to the buffet.
I've been planning the Boston trip since November... I had such a crappy summer cause my parents ruined all the stuff I planned... Worked 6/7 for 8-14hrs with no vacation... But I was thinking "Well as long as I can go to Boston and the festival, fine" But nope, my mom managed to ruin that for me and made the entire Boston trip a waste... Aaaand turned summer into one crappy one. The only good thing would be the money I was able to make... Though I'm not sure about how much I really made.
I WILL do something on Winter Vacation to make this up...
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Saw Nori Gobe yesturday at pool. Haven't seen her since 7th grade when she went back to Japan. Now she's back to go to Keio apprently... And she came to the pool with other jap girls~ Tis was very nice to see her~
We raced and she beat me in breast stroke/backstroke... While I beat her in Free and Fly~ It's ok, considering she's still swimming in Japan while I'm not~
Than today was the last day of work. It was... Interesting? Marina(the lifeguard) read me Founding Brothers all afternoon while we were sitting on the chairs... Well nothing else I guess??? My supervisor disappeared as usual... And I had to take care of his screw ups.
And tomorrow I'm off to Boston... Pretty excited about that, though now I gotta go with my family from DC instead of just by myself.
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Well I tried to call my room mate for couple days... Each time I call I get a busy signal so I thought "Fucker, this guy only has 1 phone line and he use it all day for internet or something"
But today, I made a break through!!! I was able to talk to his mom!!! And guess what? She only speaks chinese... Not a single bit of english worked with her. So I couldn't even get her to pass the phone to my room mate.
So than I asked Sarah to call the dude, and have her speak chinese with his mom. Before calling Sarah goes "What if his dad picks up and get the wrong impression?"(or something like that)
Umm... Yea... Me thinking "Sarah can't speak chinese well(according to her) and what if his dad DOES pick up... Who knows what'll happen if there's any miscommunication???"
I kinda got worried about that... I mean maybe my room mate would think I'm Sarah or some weird ass thing... And ofcourse when Sarah called his dad had to pick up...
There's couple thing I learned from the call though? His dad can speak english(Why couldn't HE pick up when I called couple times when only the mother picked up???). Another thing is my room mate's uncle is a MAYOR somewhere... Cause when his dad heard the "310"-8150, he goes "oh my brother's the mayor there!"(Yes, Sarah was having a semi-convo with my room mate's dad).
I'm now just hoping that my room mate can speak english... And it's not just some family that moved to USA because of the father's job...
Oh yea...
His name is Ruzhi Chen. If by some incredible coincidence/miracle that anybody know him, please tell me *coughAmycough*
It'll also be helpful if somebody can tell me his email and save me the trouble of calling...
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exhausted
crazy
creative
cheerful
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curious
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